My attitude is primarily upbeat and optimistic. My posts on this blog reflect my mindset. But occasionally I will have a bad moment that stretches out into a bad day. Yes, I am aware it doesn’t have to go that way, yet it usually does. If you are hoping to get some great words of wisdom from this post, I recommend you skip this one. It is not going to happen.
Today as I was leaving out to go to work, which I don’t normally do on Tuesdays, I fell down the steps and smacked my face on the floor. Oh I’m also not going to sugarcoat anything either. My friends have all been texted before I published this post. They don’t handle finding out information from my blog well. Anyway, it hurt. I mean I was dazed as fuck. Yet I got up. Collected my belongings and made my way to the car. My left leg was shaking really bad. Not sure if it was because of the fall or it was the reason why I fell. I had to stop several times to try and control the shaking so I could just walk. I made it to the car okay. I made it into work and I did my job for the next 3 and 1/2 hours.
What I felt mentally though was defeated. I was so upset. I literally could have cried my eyes out. Not from the pain, the swollen lip or the scrapped nose. But from life always determined to kick the shit out of you. I had a great Zoom call with the ladies at the Monday mastermind. Marian, the facilitator, said she starts each morning saying, “Today is an amazing day.” Thought I would try it. Said it in the shower and believed it. Then not even 20 steps away from my door that shit happened. I shook it off though. Then the first phone call I answered at work was a nurse telling me I was rude because I would not share patient information without a release of info. I’m sorry isn’t HIPAA still in effect? She proceeded to hang up on me.
Ok, I just fell and busted my face. Now I have some heffa on the phone with an attitude because I am doing my job correctly. Seriously what the fuck else? I can hear people saying it. Hell my coworker said it. Just because you had a couple of bad moments doesn’t mean you have to have a bad day. I know that! Nor do I want to have a bad day. But can’t I just go through this experience? Can’t I cry if I want to? Can’t I have a moment of anger? Like aren’t these human emotions? Why have them if I can’t experience them?
I ultimately did not have a bad day. I went to get my nails done by my favorite nail tech, Ally at Soto Salon and Spa, and they turned out great as usual. They are money green. I’m manifesting over here with my nails. I had a friend stop by and enjoyed some good conversation. And I took a nap which always makes me feel better. I wrote this post and kept my streak of a post a day going. Not a bad day at all. Today was an amazing day!
Sometimes doesn’t it seem like when you are feeling good and riding a wave, that all of a sudden life says, “Aht Aht, what do you think this is?” Lol. How do you get past these moments? How do you handle it? It is absolutely going to happen, no fail. I used to get really angry and stay that way for days. Thinking that life had it out for me. I was upset today but I refuse to let it last or stain my whole day. And as long as I can shake it off after a little while, I’m good with that. I don’t know if I will ever be the person that doesn’t get upset. And is that even natural?
If you have some tips, I would love to hear it. Not saying I’m going to adopt them 😆, but a fresh perspective is always good to hear. Stay safe. Be well and whole. And don’t fall down any steps, it hurts. Much love 🧡 💚