I debated whether I was going to share this or not. I have two other posts that I could shared first. And this story is pretty embarrassing 😳. But who knows, someone may read this and think that is so me, “Glad I am not the only one.” Or laugh their ass off and their day gets a little brighter.
I am sure or I don’t know if there is anyone on the planet that is as awkward as I am. Most of the time I’m muted because any time that I open my mouth I am always putting my foot in it. I have managed to do that 2 times in the last two weeks (and countless other times my whole life). This last time I just did it I am sure that if a hole opened in the ground to swallow me up, I would have threw my arms up and said “Wheeeeee” as I was sliding down.
So here I am thinking I am being cute and funny (I still think my comment was cute and funny and this could be a whole other issue) commenting to someone on Instagram. I seen this pic and this reply just popped in my head. For some this may be a good thing. For me, that means my filter isn’t working properly and I probably shouldn’t go with it. Lol. But no, I did. Which isn’t even the main issue. I proceeded to message this person with my funny response. I have a unique sense of humor. Most people can’t tell if I am joking or being as ass. Usually I am joking people! I did employ the appropriate emoji (😂) to let the person know it was a joke. Still not the main issue.
I am walking around laughing, thinking I am so clever. I get in the shower and as most of us do, get clear headed. “Oh shit, I don’t think I sent that message privately. I think other people can see what I said.” My heart just seized a little from the memory of the realization. I was taking a chance by sending the message hoping that the other person could appreciate my sense of humor. Now to hope that anyone else who seen it and read it got me too, Fuck!
I wrestled with verifying my assumption that this message was now out in the world for anyone to see. I decided that verification would only make it worse so I didn’t check. Hell, I have been scared to go back on Instagram since. Lol. The fact is I am 99% sure I fucked up. I am being lenient with myself and so incredibly hopeful with leaving that 1% possibility out there.
I was suppose to be working on my visualization when I was driving around on Saturday, but I spent the majority of the car ride screaming, “Who does this shit?” Me…I do. I know that it is ok to be me. I’m just not sure if the world is ready for it. Hell, I’m not sure if I’m ready for it. I know beyond the shadow of a doubt that I will say and do something else embarrassing (probably before the week is out). The only way I wouldn’t is if I never said anything. Which may not be a bad idea. I just decided that from this day forth I will not open my mouth because I don’t know how to act 🤐. Lol
So usually I wrap up what I have said with a neat little bow at the end. Not this time. I have nothing inspiring to say. Maybe, be you but expect the consequences of your actions. Or learn exactly how to work whatever social media you are using. Or learn from others experiences. I really think I told this story to make you laugh. I wish I could have recorded it so you could hear it in my voice with all the inflections. It would have been even funnier. Anyway, that’s it. Be well and whole. Much love 🧡 💚