I had what I considered the best call ever with book club last Wednesday. The calls have gotten better each week. When I first joined I was like, “I don’t know if this is for me”. I am weird but I felt that I was on a different level of weird from the others. I didn’t think that they were my tribe. It was like being in a high school cafeteria and seeing the separate tables of “weird” kids. Though they were all labeled “weird”, they were not the same kind of weird. Science nerds, extra smart nerds, gamer nerds, computer nerds, book club nerds. I thought I had sat at the wrong table. Now as time has gone by, I have found myself relating to their stories. Appreciating their perspectives. Respecting their willingness to put their vulnerabilities on display. And generally just learning from, laughing with and enjoying the time spent with these unique individuals. I am glad that I didn’t make any snappy decisions and quit book club.
I mentioned this book club before on my blog in “Testing, Testing 1, 2, 3”. In case you haven’t read that post the book club is called the Rich Lit Society and we meet weekly via Zoom. Hosted by Sean Croxton, who also has my favorite podcast called The Quote of the Day Show. I have talked about his podcast in past posts as well. It is a gem. Now I am kinda cheap. When I initially seen the price I was like, “He cool and all, but not happening”. Lol. Then Sean presented a trial offer of $7 for the first month’s subscription. It was right smack in the middle of the stay at home orders and I thought, what the hell. I joined in right when they were starting “The Alchemist” by Paulo Coelho. I said it before and I will say it again, “The Alchemist” needs its own blog post. One small problem. I gave the book to a friend. Now I need to reorder it to be able to talk about the book the way I want to.
Like I said, I wasn’t really sure if book club was for me but I did enjoy the book. I continued on with the next month’s subscription payment of $29 and a new book called “The Four Agreements” by Don Miguel Ruiz. I had rented the book from the library at one point, but never read past the first couple of pages. This book though interesting and having good content, manages to rub me the wrong way every time I read a new agreement. Don Miguel would say that there is something that I made an agreement with that is my issue. I am inclined to believe that but at the same time, boooo! Lol. We are not done with the book yet, but I still recommend it. It will challenge you and make you a little mad. These are good things. It lets you know what you need to work on. We can all be better versions of ourselves. Even different versions if what we are isn’t working for us. Here is a link to order the book if you are interested.
https://amzn.to/2WwtVV2
The reality is I have found my tribe. It just took me a little longer to realize it. I am so used to being closed off. Only sharing myself and my story with a few close friends. Even the things I share on this blog is just the tip of the iceberg. Here these people are bearing their souls to each other. And here I am on the outside looking in. Wanting to join, but not knowing how to open up. Searching for the right words to say. I want to be vulnerable. There is healing in the release. One day I will get there. I do not comment much on the calls, but I have become active in the chats. Even though I am slow to open up to people, I do feel comfortable doing so in this group.
If you have read my last few posts you know I was going through it. I didn’t know how my next post would go. This post was actually suppose to be the next one, but then something happened that I had to share first. Lol. Check out “Lack of Communication”. With this post I decided to present my usual content because that is why I started this blog. I am still and will always be in support of Black Lives Matter and against racism. I am still wondering when will Breonna Taylor’s family get justice for her senseless murder. I am still aware of the covert and now extremely overt racism going on in America. I know that black men and women are still being killed due to the color of their skin. I did however unplug for a little bit. I found myself angry every day with each new atrocity. I found myself hurting and bruised, consumed by the effects of reading and watching the news stories. I was not in a good place.
I want my blog to be inspiring and relatable. I want to make people laugh and even at times make people cry. Most importantly, I want to be true to myself. There are times that I will display my dark parts. That is who I am. I will continue to touch on issues that are going on in the world. I will however, not overwhelm you with them. I can share the worst of it with my friends and family, my support system. Thank you for continuing to support this blog. As always, stay well and whole. Much love 🧡💚
Quick update:
My new phone is here 🎉. I am completely happy now. So who knew that on the Samsung phones there is a thing called Smart Switch. Not me obviously or I wouldn’t have been so worried about the data that I hadn’t downloaded or losing my passwords. Smart Switch allows you to move all of your information from one phone to another by connecting them wireless or through the USB. God shined his grace, favor and mercy upon me today and the old phone blinked in just enough that I was able to activate the Smart Switch and transfer all the information over to the new phone. Yay! Problem solved on so many levels.