Not too long ago, I prayed to God that I want to hear his voice more. That I wanted him to direct me. At this point I had realized that nothing in my life was going the way that I wanted. That I am almost 40 years old and I am no better off than I was when I was in my twenties. I am obviously doing something wrong. God has the answers I just need to listen. Yes I do hear his voice but not at the level where I feel that he guides all my steps.
After praying this prayer, a few days later, God whispered to me. At the time I was so thankful. It made sense. I called my friend and told her what I prayed and how he had answered me. I was so happy. But…yes, I have a stubborn nature. I didn’t agree with God in the back of my mind. I put more of a no, not now but maybe later perspective on what he whispered to me. When God meant no, not at all! And so I preceded to alter God’s directive to suit my purpose. Let’s be honest, this wasn’t my first time so you would think I knew better right. Smh
You cannot asks God a direct question and reject his answer. It doesn’t work that way. So he yelled at me. Do I blame him, not at all. The whispers is sweet. It doesn’t hurt. It allows you to step back before there is pain or disappointment. It is a forewarning. The yell is like a slap in the face. The worst whipping that you got from your parents. It can change you and not for the better. It hurts dammit!
I don’t know where life is going to take me. The experiences that I will have, good or bad. I do know that I can minimize the bad experiences. I can pray for direction and guidance. I can open my mind and my heart to God’s whispers. And when he does, all I have to do is listen. Truly and obediently. Because I don’t like getting yelled at.
Is there a time that God whispered to you and you didn’t listen? If you would like to share, feel free to make a comment. If you want to talk about it privately, email me at elsims27@yahoo.com.