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All Lives Can’t Matter Until Black Lives Matter

Warning **Explicit Language due to Anger**
Warning **Explicit Content**

Now if you are reading after those two warnings you are willing to hear and see what I have to share.

My mom and my niece attending a protest rally in South Carolina.

I have been filled with so much anger at the things I have been seeing online in regards to these protests. I am upset that in the beginning the media tried to shine a negative light on the protests. Reporting only on the riots and looting. Depicting all the protests as violent and destructive. They didn’t start really reporting the truth until social media took over the narrative. Videos of people in attendance at these events brought a different perspective that could not be ignored any longer. These videos showed the police using their authority to commit unlawful acts against innocent citizens. If you haven’t seen them yet, here is a few links. These videos I am sharing are from various people I follow on Instagram. I do not own the rights to any of these videos. Like I stated above, Explicit Content. I recommend only watching these videos if you are able to handle what you see.

https://www.instagram.com/p/CA6-mXcncql/?igshid=gbez87dccrm2

https://www.instagram.com/p/CA6TCIGnuWm/?igshid=1ndr9tl4t3g7j

Ok last one because my stomach is turning and honestly I can’t handle it myself.

https://www.instagram.com/p/CAzE7TdHUgC/?igshid=ilmz87ueylx1

I mean they pushed down a 75 year old man and left him for dead. Thank God he has been reported as doing okay but really!?!?!?!?!

The reality is how much do they, whoever the hell they are, expect people to take? At first I was totally against the destruction. Then as I received more and more information, I gained a better understanding. Then I put myself in someone else’s shoes. If my nephew, 16 years old and all of 6 feet tall, who would be considered a “threat” due to height alone was on the receiving end of any police brutality/murder, I would burn this country to the ground. I would not stop until justice was muted out in a court of law or by my own hands. This may sound out of place but do it. Put yourself in any of these parents, brothers, sisters, sons or daughters shoes. If any of these unarmed, unnecessary deaths was one of your family members, how would you respond?

I realize that these protest won’t change the most racist of hearts. It is to reach the people who have been neutral or unconcerned because it didn’t effect them. It is like when we see wars breaking out in other countries, buildings being bombed and citizens dying and we are upset and frustrated. But we know that there is only so much we can do. The thing is the murders of unarmed black men and women are happening right here in our own country and there is something we can do. We can stop watching the TV with anger and frustration and get out here and work on changing this country. That means educating yourself and not taking what you see in mainstream media as fact.

I didn’t really cuss and that is so unusual. Lol. I am angry but explicit language isn’t always necessary to get your point across. However, it does usually make me feel better. Maybe if I had posted this last week every other sentence would have been laced with profanity. I have had a moment to calm down a little. I am still in this fight against racism. I don’t want any of these protest to die a slow death. We need change and it is long overdue. I believe this country will not rest in peace any longer. And I am stretching it by calling all these years of quiet acceptance of the mistreatment of black people peace. It was actually an underground volcano waiting to erupt. Now everyone is getting hit with the shit.

Here is a few clips of protest rallies around the world including America. They inspire me and fill my heart. It is crazy that other countries are so in support of black people here in America.


I sent this to my mom and said it looks like the whole country showed up. Lol

https://www.instagram.com/p/CBHI9GUnZl9/?igshid=1hgvqcnrbr0qy

https://www.instagram.com/p/CBHImwZHM59/?igshid=1uhm7mzbtews3

https://www.instagram.com/p/CBHIHcwHS3f/?igshid=1ii9k4ixmlojh

https://www.instagram.com/p/CBLMQhNH6Oq/?igshid=hr3isksjj9wb

And it was so many more with huge turnouts. Even the Amish supported Black Lives Matter.

I am currently listening to an audiobook by Ijeoma Oluo called “So You Want To Talk About Race.” It can be a tough read if you aren’t black but it is a very informative book. I recommend it. When she talked about the first time she was called the n word, that was tough for me. It broke my heart. No one is asking white people to go through what we go through, we are just asking for white people to be aware of it. I watched this clip of a video from Jane Elliot asking a room full of white people a very specific question. Jane Elliot is a teacher/anti-racism advocate that did an exercise on her students back in 1968 called Blue Eyes – Brown Eyes. The students in the class were treated differently based on eye color. It was to demonstrate how blacks are treated versus whites. Let’s say the exercise did not go over well. No one wants to be treated like black people. Hear is the clip.

This video is kind of old so I guess some white people were already aware. And now that people are really aware, due to watching a man die right before their eyes on a video, what is going to change? I don’t know. I just hope and pray that laws are changed, new laws are made and that racists are taken out of positions of power. I know that black people will never fully be accepted in America or the world. There will always be someone who is racist towards blacks. But I believe that the more anti-racist individuals and black people unite in this world, the better it will be.

I don’t know what my future posts will be like. I know I still want to continue to share books, ideas, wins/losses and everything in between with you all. I am just caught up in my feelings right now. I hope each and every one of you continue to be well and whole. Find some peace in all this craziness. Stay safe. Much love 🧡💚

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This is America

So I had written almost a whole post that I was going to share but then I logged onto Instagram. The first post I seen on Instagram was this.

As I scrolled down further I seen that there was also a video of this black man being killed by a white police officer. Anything I was talking about on my blog was nowhere near as important as this. My heart shattered. I felt his pain and anger from the above post. Here we are again. Actually this is a situation that we never left. I don’t know how to process this. Like what corner do I stuff this in yet again? I mean what the fuck!?!?!?!?!

The coronavirus is out here claiming lives left and right and police officers are too. The fact that they keep getting by with it is emboldening them to continue to take the lives of black men and women without any reason. Fear? You scared but you are the one with the weapon. They raided the wrong house and killed a black woman, Breonna Taylor, who is a first responder/essential worker while she slept and that’s ok because they felt threatened. They pressed their knee into a man’s neck, George Floyd, until he is dead and he is laying on the ground handcuffed and unarmed. It is to the point that civilians are killing people, Ahmaud Arbery, jogging through the neighborhood because he matched the description of someone breaking into houses.

And the worst part about that is if the video had not surfaced, they would have gotten away with killing that young man. When will it end? When will the boys in blue be held accountable for their racist acts? And people can say this is not about race but we know that is bullshit. I have seen plenty of episodes of cop shows where white people are cussing the cops out, brandishing weapons and running from police in high speed chases and walking away unharmed. No tasing, no gunshots and alive to return home to their families.

So I need to give these lives a moment of silence. I need to heal. I don’t know how to compartmentalize this anymore. Everyone stay safe and continue to be well and whole. Still much love 🧡💚.

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Today would have been the Multiple Sclerosis walk in Toledo, Ohio. Unfortunately, since the coronavirus is taking over the world, the walk was cancelled. It was cancelled pretty early on once a pandemic was declared. Majority of MS medications are immunosuppressive which makes people with MS more susceptible to catching the Rona. Imagine a walk full of immune suppressed people all catching the virus. Terrifying 😱.

I was really excited at the beginning of the year about the MS walk and had purchased my yarn back in February. This year I was going to make 2 full size blankets and 1 lap blanket for someone who uses a scooter or wheelchair. My mom decided she would make the lap blanket. I started in March and made real progress. My goals was to have both blankets completed 2 weeks before the walk. After the actual walk was cancelled I lost all kinds of motivation.

Who the hell was I going to give the blankets to anyway? I don’t really know a lot of people with MS. Normally I would just go to the walk and whomever God lead me to, I would bless with a blanket. Worked out pretty well. Now what?

Despite this unexpected outcome I still felt the need to finish the blankets. Well, once I put them together, they turned out to be a little smaller than expected. More like lap blankets. Smh. I don’t remember the schematics for the larger blanket. I will write down the measurements for the lap blankets and just know I need to double it to get the bigger blankets. They still look pretty good though.

Finished the green one last night before I went to bed 😅. Not the two weeks before but still done and checked off my yearly goals. Yay! Oddly, I am still managing to check some things off. I will continue to do as many as I can before the end of this year. Are any of you still working on the goals you set for yourself? How is it going? And if not, why? I would love to hear from you.

One more goal accomplished I forgot to tell you all about.

“The precious”

Yep my long awaited, highly anticipated GoPro Hero 8. I am still excited about this baby right here. Just wish I had some adventures to record. The day will come and I will definitely share all my fabulous adventures with you all.

If you know of anyone with Multiple Sclerosis that would benefit from one of these blankets let me know. Like I said I have no one to give them to at this point. My goal is always to make someone feel special and understood. Especially being someone also affected by this disease. Feel free to leave a comment below or send me an email at elsims27@yahoo.com. As we continue to live through this pandemic with caution and hopefully hope, be well and whole. Much love 🧡💚!