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I have just been thinking. Thinking and not thinking. Thinking about random weird shit. Thinking about life and death. Thinking about sickness. Thinking about the world opening back up and what could possibly happen. My mind is always so overwhelmed with thoughts. I sat down one day to write them out. I wrote two sentences. I wrote “I’m unhappy and I can’t shake it. I am ready to live a different life but I’m stuck in this one.” Deep huh?

I am sure some people will ask, “Well what are you waiting for?” The problem is I waited too long. I reached my expiration date last year. But I had loose ends to tie up, selling my house. So I signed another year lease on my apartment to make sure all was taken care of. To make sure that when I leave I don’t have to come back. But now the house is sold and I have to reconcile with being here. And I haven’t done that yet. I am ready to spread my wings and fly. It doesn’t help that summer and nice weather is around the corner.

I know this post is a little heavy but I feel like it is necessary. I know I am not the only one person who feels this way. I know I’m not the only person who wakes up and feels the sameness. I know I’m not the only person who wants to run away and sit on a beach as they watch the sunrise. The one good thing for me is that it will change. I am moving at the end of this year as soon as my lease is up. I’ll be in South Carolina sitting on the beach watching the sunrise. How about you? What are you waiting for?

It is not to late to make that change. The unhappiness and the sameness of life, especially after coming through this last year, can be overwhelming. It can stifle your creativity. It can kill your imagination. It can dim your light. Hell, I was thinking about taking an embroidery class to break this sameness. Lol. I didn’t sign up, but it’s not off the table. How can you break the sameness? What have you been wanting to try? What place have you wanted to visit?

Life is short and time flies. I know these are played out sayings but they still hold true. In about a week in a half, it will be June. What the hell? It is almost time for me to take stock and see what I have done with the first half of my year. And I already know it isn’t nearly as much as I wanted to. I know it has been difficult to live our lives as we may have wanted. But let’s not give up. Let’s set new goals and put different activities on our bucket list. As this nation opens up and you are ready to get your spark back, just be safe. Stay well and whole. Much love 🧡💚

Oddly enough, after all this time I didn’t feel like writing. So I recorded a video. Definitely something different for me, but I’m glad I did it. I hope you like it.

I’m empty. Empty headed. Can’t come up with a good idea. A complete sentence. A paragraph. I can’t tell you the last time I have been this way. I can tell you I don’t like.

In book club we are reading “Personality Isn’t Permanent” by Benjamin Hardy. Well, they’re reading it 😄. I’m not connecting with the book. I definitely believe people can change and who we are now may not be who we will be in a few years. I know I have come a long way. I have changed a lot of my belief systems and generally how I think and feel about myself and others. So I don’t know why I’m not loving this book.

There is one thing that he says that I am all for though. He challenges his reader to create a clear picture of themselves 3 years from now. What will you be doing? In what ways have you changed? Why do you want to become this person? These are some good questions. I usually don’t plan my life that far ahead. I set goals for the year of what I want to accomplish and try my best to make it happen. These goals are not necessarily steps to obtain the life I want to live in the future. They are just milestones to look back at and say, “I did that”.

With Hardy’s book and 30 Day Future Self Program, the 3 year plan is really concentrated and focused on changing yourself to become that person. To have the things that your future self would want. The business, the education, the marriage, the health, the wealth. I like this concept!

I have however, connected more with his 30 Day Future Self Program. It is a daily video that includes a question to answer to help you realize who your future is and what you want for that person. Anyone can sign up for the program and it is free. If you are interested in trying this program, here is the link:

https://30dayfutureself.com

He recommends you purchase the book as well. It gives a more in depth understanding if you purchase the book. The choice is yours. You may get all you need from the 30 Day program. I will say if you aren’t happy with the way your life is going right now, this will definitely be helpful. It can’t hurt. I wish for you and your future self to be well and whole. Much Love 🧡💚