Author: elsims

So I went to the doctor yesterday. I am not a fan of doctors because I feel like their solution to everything is giving you a pill. Now I’m not a big pill taker. Not much that I hate but pills are one of the things I hate. Especially if they are not capsules or coated. Those white chalky ones end up coming right back up. Lol. I do believe that pills can help on a short term basis. I don’t believe in taking pills long term. There are just too many side effects that can cause something else to go wrong. Then they are giving you another pill for that issue. Never ending cycle.

I had some labs done at my last visit and we went over them yesterday. Things are definitely out of order in my body. TSH for my thyroid about 10 times the normal range. Hemoglobin level at 8.71, normal range 12-16, indicative of anemia due to low iron. Vitamin D deficiency as well. So now the girl who hates pills has no choice but to take them. I am constantly tired, no matter how much sleep I get. And I don’t want to feel this way anymore. Though I am in agreement with taking these pills, I will not allow it to be a long term solution.

For some conditions, I believe changing your eating habits can be just as effective as pills. With that being said, I have changed my diet to plant based foods. Which pretty much means no foods that come from an animal or any part of an animal, including seafood. The last, no seafood, I don’t know if I am going to make it. Lol. Not for the rest of my life. As I have mention before, I have multiple sclerosis, MS for short. Reading about this condition and also speaking with others, I have learned a plant based diet may be beneficial for my health and to help fight the progression of MS. I don’t know but versus taking a pill everyday for the rest of my life with no guarantees and numerous side effects, I can definitely give this diet a try. So far its different but not as challenging as I thought it would be. I think my biggest struggle is my sweet tooth. Cookies, Reese’s peanut butter cups, an occasional donut or brownie. Smh. My neighbor did suggest Oreos, the one thing I can eat that I don’t really like. I’ll wait until I’m desperate. Lol.

For me at this time in my life, I find myself doing things I don’t want to do. Doctors, pills, no seafood. I also find myself realizing that I cannot go on practicing unhealthy habits and expect a good quality of life. What habits have you realized is affecting your quality of life? What do you plan on doing about it? If nothing, just curious why? I realize we all have to get to a point where enough is enough. This may not be your time. Hell it has taken me getting ready to turn 40 to finally get there.

Also, for anyone already living on a plant based diet, what are some of your favorite foods or recipes? I need help.

Comments or emails always welcomed. Email is elsims27@yahoo.com.

Not too long ago, I prayed to God that I want to hear his voice more. That I wanted him to direct me. At this point I had realized that nothing in my life was going the way that I wanted. That I am almost 40 years old and I am no better off than I was when I was in my twenties. I am obviously doing something wrong. God has the answers I just need to listen. Yes I do hear his voice but not at the level where I feel that he guides all my steps.

After praying this prayer, a few days later, God whispered to me. At the time I was so thankful. It made sense. I called my friend and told her what I prayed and how he had answered me. I was so happy. But…yes, I have a stubborn nature. I didn’t agree with God in the back of my mind. I put more of a no, not now but maybe later perspective on what he whispered to me. When God meant no, not at all! And so I preceded to alter God’s directive to suit my purpose. Let’s be honest, this wasn’t my first time so you would think I knew better right. Smh

You cannot asks God a direct question and reject his answer. It doesn’t work that way. So he yelled at me. Do I blame him, not at all. The whispers is sweet. It doesn’t hurt. It allows you to step back before there is pain or disappointment. It is a forewarning. The yell is like a slap in the face. The worst whipping that you got from your parents. It can change you and not for the better. It hurts dammit!

I don’t know where life is going to take me. The experiences that I will have, good or bad. I do know that I can minimize the bad experiences. I can pray for direction and guidance. I can open my mind and my heart to God’s whispers. And when he does, all I have to do is listen. Truly and obediently. Because I don’t like getting yelled at.

Is there a time that God whispered to you and you didn’t listen? If you would like to share, feel free to make a comment. If you want to talk about it privately, email me at elsims27@yahoo.com.

This. This blog is something that I wanted for a little while. I talked about it for months. Checked on the domain name regularly to make sure no one had taken it before I could purchase it. I wrote blogs in advance so that I would always have something to post. Already had my second blog name and subject picked out. I was ready to go. Until I wasn’t. Pre-ordered business cards, do people have business cards for blogs? Purchased my domain name for 6 years! Not even sure if I have six years worth of talking in me. Started to build my blog site and stalled out. Now at the same time, life was happening.

I was coming to an end of my year lease for my apartment with my house still in my possession. Made the decision to move back into the house. Nothing went according to plan. Unforeseen issues with the house, it wasn’t ready when I moved back in. Long story. I accidentally selected the gloss finish on the business cards when I wanted matte. No changes to order can be made once completed. Also, the E in Ebony and the E in Everything were capitalized on the business card. Yeah, when I actually purchased my domain name, found out it all had to be lowercase.

Now I had read “how to start a blog” blogs and it seemed easy enough. Not exactly. I did go through the process. Do I purchase a theme or use one of theirs? Decisions, decisions. I am terrible with making them. So I usually don’t. Now I am in limbo. A month after I have secured my domain name and started fiddling with my blog, I have not posted a single post. I have posted 4 measly post since then. Not anything in 2 months.

What happened? Life. Now I am quick to say that I can adjust, I don’t let things get me down, ya-da, ya-da. Today I realize that is not true. I allowed life and things not going as planned to stop me from doing something I really wanted to do. I didn’t adjust and push through. I didn’t bounce back. I didn’t rise up. Here I am, sitting under a dark cloud allowing life to rain on my parade day in and day out.

Now, I have to think, what else? What else have I truly not bounced back from? What else have I allowed the day to day workings of life to stop me from doing and being? I am going to be honest, I don’t want to look under this rock. I don’t want any parts of it. But I know that I have to go there. Now this is something I have realized. I am not living. I am existing. I wake up, go to work and most days, go home. It makes me sad to type it, so imagine living this life. To lift up the rock and examine what is under it, is so life changing, I have to say I am scared. But to continue this life, to allow it to set me back or to make me stagnant, I can no longer do.

I am limited in some areas due to MS. I am not limited in my ability to think or to use my hands to type. I have nothing but excuses, no real reasons to not post at least 2-3 times per week. I had already made the decision to just write. Only caring that words are spelled correctly, not sentence structure. My goal is to reach people. To touch them. To make them laugh. To make them cry. To share a little bit of myself. And at times to share a lot. So far no one outside of my friends or family even know I have a blog. I don’t even think they read it. Though I am not a fan of my business cards, I need to start handing them out. I need to let the world know I have something to say, well a lot of things actually.

As always, if you would like to comment, share your story, or want to talk. Feel free to email me at elsims27@yahoo.com or post a comment under any of my post.