Month: January 2021

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Today Is An Amazing Day

“We try so hard to hide everything we’re really feeling from those who probably need to know our true feelings the most. People try to bottle up their emotions, as if it’s somehow wrong to have natural reactions to life.” – Colleen Hoover

My attitude is primarily upbeat and optimistic. My posts on this blog reflect my mindset. But occasionally I will have a bad moment that stretches out into a bad day. Yes, I am aware it doesn’t have to go that way, yet it usually does. If you are hoping to get some great words of wisdom from this post, I recommend you skip this one. It is not going to happen.

Today as I was leaving out to go to work, which I don’t normally do on Tuesdays, I fell down the steps and smacked my face on the floor. Oh I’m also not going to sugarcoat anything either. My friends have all been texted before I published this post. They don’t handle finding out information from my blog well. Anyway, it hurt. I mean I was dazed as fuck. Yet I got up. Collected my belongings and made my way to the car. My left leg was shaking really bad. Not sure if it was because of the fall or it was the reason why I fell. I had to stop several times to try and control the shaking so I could just walk. I made it to the car okay. I made it into work and I did my job for the next 3 and 1/2 hours.

What I felt mentally though was defeated. I was so upset. I literally could have cried my eyes out. Not from the pain, the swollen lip or the scrapped nose. But from life always determined to kick the shit out of you. I had a great Zoom call with the ladies at the Monday mastermind. Marian, the facilitator, said she starts each morning saying, “Today is an amazing day.” Thought I would try it. Said it in the shower and believed it. Then not even 20 steps away from my door that shit happened. I shook it off though. Then the first phone call I answered at work was a nurse telling me I was rude because I would not share patient information without a release of info. I’m sorry isn’t HIPAA still in effect? She proceeded to hang up on me.

Ok, I just fell and busted my face. Now I have some heffa on the phone with an attitude because I am doing my job correctly. Seriously what the fuck else? I can hear people saying it. Hell my coworker said it. Just because you had a couple of bad moments doesn’t mean you have to have a bad day. I know that! Nor do I want to have a bad day. But can’t I just go through this experience? Can’t I cry if I want to? Can’t I have a moment of anger? Like aren’t these human emotions? Why have them if I can’t experience them?

I ultimately did not have a bad day. I went to get my nails done by my favorite nail tech, Ally at Soto Salon and Spa, and they turned out great as usual. They are money green. I’m manifesting over here with my nails. I had a friend stop by and enjoyed some good conversation. And I took a nap which always makes me feel better. I wrote this post and kept my streak of a post a day going. Not a bad day at all. Today was an amazing day!

Sometimes doesn’t it seem like when you are feeling good and riding a wave, that all of a sudden life says, “Aht Aht, what do you think this is?” Lol. How do you get past these moments? How do you handle it? It is absolutely going to happen, no fail. I used to get really angry and stay that way for days. Thinking that life had it out for me. I was upset today but I refuse to let it last or stain my whole day. And as long as I can shake it off after a little while, I’m good with that. I don’t know if I will ever be the person that doesn’t get upset. And is that even natural?

If you have some tips, I would love to hear it. Not saying I’m going to adopt them 😆, but a fresh perspective is always good to hear. Stay safe. Be well and whole. And don’t fall down any steps, it hurts. Much love 🧡 💚

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Monday Mastermind

If only it was this easy. Lol

Today I attended a mastermind group. What is that you ask? A mastermind group is a collective of like minded individuals that you can bounce ideas off of, that hold you accountable to do what you say you are going to do and be your support when it doesn’t go the way you thought. This was the first time I attended one of these group and it won’t be my last.

I am a rebel. I break my own rules. Lol. I don’t have a set routine for any part of my day or life. I just wake up and hope for the best. I’m sure there is a better way. I will come up with a routine, but about a week later I’m back to the same bad habits. I rarely manage to adopt any new useful habits. I have finally discovered why. I write down what I want to do, but I rarely ever share my to do list with anyone. Just this past week I have set intentions and have been challenged to report back with my results. What have I gotten myself into? My issue this whole time has been accountability.

When I am the only person holding myself accountability it’s probably not going to happen. Well, not within the time period I set to accomplish the goal. But now that I have people to answer to, for lack of a better phrase, I gotta do the thing. Whether it is writing and publishing a blog post for 7 days straight. Or not hitting the snooze button when my alarm goes off. Or agreeing to attend a mastermind class. They are going to check in with me and I’ll be damned if I didn’t do what I said I was going to do. It’s crazy how I am more concerned with disappointing them than I am with disappointing myself. Something to think about 🤔.

The other day, I was reflecting on how I half assed it in 2020. Like I didn’t give any more than about 60% of myself to my goals. Not bragging, but I was still able to accomplish a good portion of my goals. Just think how much further along I would be if I had put in 100% of the work, time and effort. Hell I would have been a rock star! Figuratively, not literally 😆. It is not just watching webinars and reading books. It is using the tools that are available to me. Now that I know what the missing link was in 2020 I have no excuse to not to do my best (Agreement #4).

Are you the type of person who is capable of holding yourself accountability or do you need others to help you stick to your guns? If you are the former, congratulations. I commend you on your disciple and your drive when it comes to getting things done. And if you are the latter, there isn’t any shame in needing help. There are people out there who want to help you. They are creating groups to help you. The right group is out there for you. Being as I mentioned this in another post just recently, I hope that you are picking up on my not so subtle hints. Get an accountability partner or two. Join a mastermind group. Post your goals on social media for others to see. Whatever it takes! Let’s make 2021 a successful year. I know you can do. Be well and whole. Much love 🧡 💚

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Another Day To Make It Happen

The Sun Signaling A New Day
Today, I am doing my year in review. Yes, I realize that it was suppose to be done at the end of the year. Who cares? Lol. I wasn’t ready and now I am. My first couple of posts for 2020, “What Year Is This?” and “The Year of Sit, Stay, Down, Come, Off, Heel and No” were the shit. Not bragging…ok, maybe a little. But they were good. Lol. As I reread them I felt great. For once, I felt as if I had actually done something with my 365 days. Actually 366, it was a leap year. I did things. I lived even despite the challenges the pandemic brought. At the same time, I could have done more. Well it is a good thing I have another day to make it happen.
I had actually written out a few of my 2021 goals a few weeks ago. I had a few repeat goals from 2020 like skydiving, kayaking and a solo birthday trip. I did not get to do any of these activities last year. Most of my goals are new, kinda. There is a couple thrown in there from previous years. Those goals were never forgotten because in my heart they still mattered. And of course they were written down which served as a testament of the shit I still haven’t done. Lol. Well it is a good thing I have another day to make it happen.
This year I am living by the principles that I read in The Four Agreements by Don Miguel Ruiz. And a couple other things which I will get to in a moment. The Four Agreements are as follows:
  1. Be Impeccable With Your Word
  2. Don’t Take Anything Personally
  3. Don’t Make Assumptions
  4. Always Do Your Best
Now don’t get me wrong, as I have stated before, I was not a fan of some things that he said in this book. But the agreements are solid. They make sense. And they have stuck with me every since I read the book. I want to be this person, so I will. Easy right? Pfffftttt, not at all. Well it is a good thing I have another day to make it happen.
The other 2 things I want to hone in on this year is focus and intention. As you can probably guess, one thing I did not master last year was meditation 😬. Oh my gosh, I struggle with this so much. I am mentally all over the place at all times. Even during sleep 😆. Meditation is not one of my goals this year, but focus is. I want to focus on one thought to completion and then began another. Not every day or every thought. But the ones that matter. The ones that have the ability to make me better. When I am making decisions. The thoughts that require my attention. Well, it is a good thing I have another day to make it happen.
My new planner has a monthly word and the one for January is Intention. Intention is an idea that you plan to carry out; a determination to do a specific thing. Well for one I intend to keep this new planner. Lol. It truly speaks to me and gave me something to work on. Intention applies to all my goals. I really like the concept that I can be intentional about my life. Life doesn’t just have to happen to me. Before last year, that is how I felt about my life. This year I will live with more intention. And it is a good thing I have another day to make it happen.
What do you want to make happen today? I know it’s corny but today is all we have. Did I make goals for the whole year? YES. Am I guaranteed to live it? NO. So what can I do today that will benefit me? Benefit others? What can I do that makes me happy? That leaves a mark? A good one that is 😆. As we continue on this journey called life, let’s live. I mean truly LIVE. Let’s cry (even though I dislike it). Let’s be vulnerable. Let’s laugh as loud as we want. Let’s sing and dance even if we don’t know how to do either of them. Let’s be who God intended us to be. It is power in accepting and loving yourself. It doesn’t mean there is not room for improvement. It just means appreciating the person you are and how far you have come on this journey. So live this day, as you are and make changes along the way. As always, be well and whole. Much love 🧡 💚