I Want It All!

Sunrise at Casa Cielo in Akumal, Mexico. I have shorts on even though you can’t see them ๐Ÿ˜‚.

So one of my goals for 2020 was to post at least 3 blog posts a month. I have successfully done that each month up until this point. I do not want to break my strike. So this post will be the third one for this month. I originally wanted to write about my trip to Mexico but I just haven’t gotten around to it. My mind has been overwhelmed with so many other things.

I have joined this course called Money Mind Academy by none other than Sean Croxton. I know at this point y’all probably think I am obsessed but that is not the case. Lol. Don’t get me wrong, he is hot๐Ÿ”ฅ. But most importantly, he is smart. He has taken all the knowledge he has learned over the years and created some very profitable businesses. I want to do the same so why not learn these skills from someone who is successful at it. This course is teaching individuals how to get rid of limiting beliefs about money and how to attract money and opportunities to live an abundant life. Uh…I need that. I don’t want to have to work forever. Do you? I hope the answer is no.

These past few weeks I have been focused on me. I attended a 7 day writing challenge with Hay House. This is a publishing company started by Louise Hay that works with writers such as Dr. Wayne Dyer (1 of my faves) and Gabrielle Bernstein. They were providing writers with information to help them start and complete their books. I learned so much. I attended a seminar by Mary Morrisey about going after your dreams with speakers such as Les Brown, Lisa Nichols, Sonia Ricotti, Bob Proctor and Neale Donald Walsch. I had heard of all the other speakers except for Neale. He was so cool. I am definitely ordering his book “Conversations with God”.

On top of that, I have been listening to audio books as I work on puzzles. I finished “Untamed” by Glennon Doyle, “Dear Girls” by Ali Wong and “Everything Is Figureoutable” by Marie Forleo. I loved them all, but I am going to purchase “Everything Is Figureoutable”. Marie provided exercises that if you actually do them, everything will be figureoutable and doable, no ifs, ands or buts. I have purchased a few new audiobooks and puzzles to work on as well. I am terrible at picking puzzles. I have managed to pick at least 6 puzzles that were missing 1 or 2 pieces. My mom finds this unbelievable ๐Ÿ˜‚. I feel like ๐Ÿคท๐Ÿพโ€โ™€๏ธ.

I want the best for me. The only way that I can achieve it is by acquiring the tools and going after it full force. That is where I am at right now. I am determined to not let this pandemic, this illness or any other life circumstances stop me. I will continue to educate myself, break down walls, create new beliefs that serve me and work on being vulnerable. Now meditation seems like a lost cause. Lol. I will keep trying though. I want it all!

And I want it all for each and every one of you. Whatever you want for your life, I hope and pray you get it. Just know that it will not magically appear. These courses that I attended were online and except for Money Mind Academy, were totally FREE. The audiobooks I rented from the library and listened to them on my phone. I do have Audible which I got at a discounted rate of $7.49 per month. I will be canceling once that rate expires. Lol. But most audiobooks I listened to came from the library. There is ways to learn to be better and do better without spending a dime.

If you are interested in any of these awesome speakers and authors, programs or audiobooks, I am happy to provide any information that I have. Email me at elsims27@yahoo.com or leave a message down below. I truly want everyone to live an abundant life, especially in these difficult times. Be well and whole. Much love ๐Ÿงก๐Ÿ’š

South Carolina Critters

I have been living and experiencing but not much writing. Crazy right!?! I took almost back to back trips. Upon my return, I have just been sealing in all these wonderful memories. I like to think back fondly when life isn’t going so great. Here is one fond and a couple of not so fond memories from when I visited my mom. Lol.

Went on a boat ride and got to see my mom’s friend retrieve crabs from his traps. That was very interesting. Here is a video. Had to shorten the video. I think I will upload my videos to YouTube and then share on my posts.

The crabs were fighting for their lives and I don’t blame them. Their little asses kept jumping out of the container and scurrying around the boat. Chalupa, my niece and I were not about that life. Lol.

Now the not so fond memories besides the phone screen going out on me. One morning I woke up to go to the bathroom and seen a little black thing on the floor. Probably about the size of a quarter or a little bigger. I am trying to figure out if it is a spider or a frog. It’s not moving and neither the fuck am I. Lol. Well…it jumped and so the fuck did I. Ugh…it is a frog. Now I can’t smash it. If it had been a spider it would have been plastered on the bottom of a shoe.

This is where it gets comical. Now that he has shown himself, he keeps jumping and I am trying to devious a way to cover him to get him outside for release. I don’t know why there is a Styrofoam bowl in the bathroom, but there is one on the sink. So I’m like I am going to throw this bowl on top of him. Now his little ass is against the wall. Plan null and void. New plan. Get him away from the wall so I can throw the bowl on him. I take the toilet scrubber with holder and try to get him to get in the middle of the floor. He just keeps jumping along the wall and now the tub ending up behind the toilet. Dude, what the fuck!?!?!?

Now I am bent down encouraging him with the scrubber to get his ass from behind the toilet. He is jumping alongside the sink. Finally he is in the middle of the floor. I throw the bowl at him, I miss. ๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ. Why ๐Ÿ˜ฉ???? I am scared to grab the bowl because that may make him jump his little ass out of the bathroom. I look in the trash bin. Only a couple paper towels inside it. I pull them out and hurriedly put the trash bin over him. ๐Ÿ˜“

I can’t sleep. I know he can’t get out from under there but my imagination is overactive. Also, I feel bad and I am hoping he is okay. Then there is the possibility of my niece waking up and going to the bathroom. She might take the trash bin off him not knowing. So many thoughts!

I hear my mom in the kitchen around 3:30 am and let her know what’s up. We devise a plan to release him in the morning. I finally fall asleep around 4 am. Around 7 in the morning we set about enacting our plan. We take a cut up gift box and slide it under the trash can. We are going to lift it and carry him outside. The gift box bows just a little and I see little black feet. I proceed to smash little black feet. Awe I did not want to do that but he cannot get out off this trash can until he is outside. Period! We get outside and my mom pitches the gift box, trash can and frog into the air and they laid on the grass ๐Ÿ˜‚. My niece comes outside like, “What is going on?” I am laughing too hard to respond. Then little miss says, “Y’all crazy. I’m going back to bed.”

I wish that it ended there. By no means. Next night, my mom is at a BBQ and my niece and I are chilling watching TV. She goes out on the porch to get her notebook she left out there earlier. I tell her to shut the door behind her. She is like, “I just need to sit this down and then I’ll close it.” About 10 minutes later we both turn to see a Palmetto bug about 2 times the size of the frog crawling on the wall. Oh God ๐Ÿ˜ซ. She is freaking out and I am cussing. Lol. I grab my mom’s broom. I proceed to hit him with it. Unfortunately that hit doesn’t kill him. It just maims him. Now he is on the floor under one of the chairs. I am hypervigilant because I don’t know where he is and I know he is not dead.

I go back to watching TV but I keep glancing over at the wall. He is back. I hit him again but he just falls. Now I am pissed because he is under the chair again. I try to sweep him out from behind the chair but he is not cooperating. I sit back down, but stay alert. Here he comes limping out from under the chair. I grab the broom and hit him several times. Chalupa says, “You don’t have to torture him.” I am not trying to torture him, I am trying to kill him!

After these two instances, I had a pretty mild stay. Thank God. I don’t know how much more nature I could handle. The only animals I like are dogs. Anything else, I’m good. Wait until I tell y’all about my Mexico trip. Smh. I think I could have developed anxiety after that trip. It makes my complaints about the animals at my mom’s house seem ridiculous.

Pandemic โœ”
Racism โœ”
Genetically Modified Mosquitoes โœ”
Cops who killed Breonna Taylor still free โœ”

Not much has changed in America. If you are struggling with what is going on in the world, I totally understand. Still haven’t completely tuned back in. Every time I think I want to my mind says, “Wait, we aren’t ready yet.” Mental health is truly important. Do not oversaturate yourself with the news and current events. Find a balance people, seriously. Make sure that you stay well and whole. Much love ๐Ÿงก๐Ÿ’š

Rich Lit Society

I had what I considered the best call ever with book club last Wednesday. The calls have gotten better each week. When I first joined I was like, “I don’t know if this is for me”. I am weird but I felt that I was on a different level of weird from the others. I didn’t think that they were my tribe. It was like being in a high school cafeteria and seeing the separate tables of “weird” kids. Though they were all labeled “weird”, they were not the same kind of weird. Science nerds, extra smart nerds, gamer nerds, computer nerds, book club nerds. I thought I had sat at the wrong table. Now as time has gone by, I have found myself relating to their stories. Appreciating their perspectives. Respecting their willingness to put their vulnerabilities on display. And generally just learning from, laughing with and enjoying the time spent with these unique individuals. I am glad that I didn’t make any snappy decisions and quit book club.

I mentioned this book club before on my blog in “Testing, Testing 1, 2, 3”. In case you haven’t read that post the book club is called the Rich Lit Society and we meet weekly via Zoom. Hosted by Sean Croxton, who also has my favorite podcast called The Quote of the Day Show. I have talked about his podcast in past posts as well. It is a gem. Now I am kinda cheap. When I initially seen the price I was like, “He cool and all, but not happening”. Lol. Then Sean presented a trial offer of $7 for the first month’s subscription. It was right smack in the middle of the stay at home orders and I thought, what the hell. I joined in right when they were starting “The Alchemist” by Paulo Coelho. I said it before and I will say it again, “The Alchemist” needs its own blog post. One small problem. I gave the book to a friend. Now I need to reorder it to be able to talk about the book the way I want to.

Like I said, I wasn’t really sure if book club was for me but I did enjoy the book. I continued on with the next month’s subscription payment of $29 and a new book called “The Four Agreements” by Don Miguel Ruiz. I had rented the book from the library at one point, but never read past the first couple of pages. This book though interesting and having good content, manages to rub me the wrong way every time I read a new agreement. Don Miguel would say that there is something that I made an agreement with that is my issue. I am inclined to believe that but at the same time, boooo! Lol. We are not done with the book yet, but I still recommend it. It will challenge you and make you a little mad. These are good things. It lets you know what you need to work on. We can all be better versions of ourselves. Even different versions if what we are isn’t working for us. Here is a link to order the book if you are interested.

https://amzn.to/2WwtVV2

The reality is I have found my tribe. It just took me a little longer to realize it. I am so used to being closed off. Only sharing myself and my story with a few close friends. Even the things I share on this blog is just the tip of the iceberg. Here these people are bearing their souls to each other. And here I am on the outside looking in. Wanting to join, but not knowing how to open up. Searching for the right words to say. I want to be vulnerable. There is healing in the release. One day I will get there. I do not comment much on the calls, but I have become active in the chats. Even though I am slow to open up to people, I do feel comfortable doing so in this group.

If you have read my last few posts you know I was going through it. I didn’t know how my next post would go. This post was actually suppose to be the next one, but then something happened that I had to share first. Lol. Check out “Lack of Communication”. With this post I decided to present my usual content because that is why I started this blog. I am still and will always be in support of Black Lives Matter and against racism. I am still wondering when will Breonna Taylor’s family get justice for her senseless murder. I am still aware of the covert and now extremely overt racism going on in America. I know that black men and women are still being killed due to the color of their skin. I did however unplug for a little bit. I found myself angry every day with each new atrocity. I found myself hurting and bruised, consumed by the effects of reading and watching the news stories. I was not in a good place.

I want my blog to be inspiring and relatable. I want to make people laugh and even at times make people cry. Most importantly, I want to be true to myself. There are times that I will display my dark parts. That is who I am. I will continue to touch on issues that are going on in the world. I will however, not overwhelm you with them. I can share the worst of it with my friends and family, my support system. Thank you for continuing to support this blog. As always, stay well and whole. Much love ๐Ÿงก๐Ÿ’š

Quick update:

My new phone is here ๐ŸŽ‰. I am completely happy now. So who knew that on the Samsung phones there is a thing called Smart Switch. Not me obviously or I wouldn’t have been so worried about the data that I hadn’t downloaded or losing my passwords. Smart Switch allows you to move all of your information from one phone to another by connecting them wireless or through the USB. God shined his grace, favor and mercy upon me today and the old phone blinked in just enough that I was able to activate the Smart Switch and transfer all the information over to the new phone. Yay! Problem solved on so many levels.